I'm resolved to feel quite pessimistic. For a little while longer. We picked up 348 euros from Western Union, and are now resolved to just do homecooked meals, except for once a week. Probably fridays in that case. I'm guessing we're having tortilla de patatas tomorrow. I have a monstrous headache. And tomorrow is later today, so that's what I meant. Screw that I'm tired and not talking to Irina.
Might as well sleep until I have my computer back. Yeah, cry myself ot sleep over that one. Just like all the others. What's so different about her? Why should I have faith that she'll continue loving me? Why when the others who I thought I had a chance with ended up blowing me off? Fuck... headache.
Another lonely night... trying to change the world but all anyone can do is nitpick. They'll never change. but I keep on doing this because I dare to believe in them.
and why the fuck not?
I need to make sure I know what to say to chago. how much do I need? -what will I do to pay him back? what can I possibly do? what am I doing with this money? how long until I can pay him back? 1400 euros for the course, 70 hours at 20 euros an hour, almost 90 hours at 15 euros, but I will pay him back once I get there!
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