18 september 2006

The relationship between me and my mother has been straining. I feel trapped, overburdened, and lonely. She thinks I have an attitude problem. Fuck. More decorations on my diaries. Although (changes pen) one of them will be for my (changes pen again) story. (okay this pen works)
Mum is...organizing her live 2006 Radiohead stuff. It truly is a neverending task. Since I wrote in my journal last, I cleaned my boots somewhat. Now armed with 40 euros, I want to add to my wardrobe what will make me look more scene. Yay. I think we need a transformed BTW, if I am to use my hair straightener. The pinnacle of scene emo kids, at least their hair.
To be honest, I've done a crap job personalizing my diaries. I added RH lyrics to the front of these DIARIES!!!

What could be an EP
I'd be there
I'd like to run
Shake all the demons out of me
I'd like to cry
Get the dirty waters out of me

And I'll be there crawling back
From the ether running back

I'd like to listen
Just tell me anything on your mind

Repeat chorus

I'd love to run
But you keep me down
I'd love to fly
But you keep me crawling around

I'd be there

I'd like to run / I'd love to to run
But you keep me down
I'd like to surpass / love to surpass

Too fucking emo. Ugh.

I'd love to run
But you need me to be around
I'd love to fly
But you love to keep me down

And I'll be there
Crawling back
From the ether
Running back

I'd love to be there
Just tell me anything on your mind

And I'd be there
Crawling back
From the ether
Running back

The poetry inside of me
Is lost in your chameleon eyes
I can force it but it won't come out

I don't know what to believe
The idiot inside of me
Is taking over now

And I'd be there
Crawling back
From the ether
Running back
And I'd be there
Crawling back
From the ether
Running back

1. I'd Be There
2. If I could stop
3.

BLAH

not enough good ideas
this particular night
too drunk to sleep
too tired to write
legibly
you don't want
to read this
i don't
wan't
to remember this